cranos
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10:07:25 am on June 26, 2008 |
Fine, this phrase has been in my head. For the whole day, I don’t know why. School was average I guess? Only with one exception. Homework’s killing me! HAHAHAHA(: Okay, it ain’t killing me alright? It’s just that I’m lazy to do. Thus, resulting in piles of homework waiting for me. I’m not going to let it pile it up any further. I’m going to attack the whole pile today! Even if it means that I’ve got to burn the midnight oil. I’ll do it. Something’s been bugging me. I shall not say what it is. But I’m so afraid. I’m so afraid that it will come true. The fact that I like you. I mean, it’s not that simple as … ‘I Like You’ kind of feeling. It’s more than that. And it’s been bugging me since school reopen. Since the first day I saw you after school reopened. And to speak the truth, I loathe it. I really loathe it. Sometime’s I loathe myself because of this. And, it’s like … Sometime’s when I see you, we’re like normal friends. And nothing else. But sometime’s when I see you, I feel as though there’s something between us and I just can’t bring it up. With the fear that, if I confess, you’ll start avoiding me. But if I don’t confess, I feel … uncomfortable. I can’t find any other words to describe the feeling. It’s just … weird kind of feeling. And I loathe it. Things haven’t been going smoothly, as I expected. But, there’s no time to waste. It’s time, to hit the books and get serious. But you know what, I just can’t get myself to do it. And I never will. But I will try and I will succeed, somehow.
Some things, are meant to be said. Whereas, some things ain’t. Maybe, I should just shut my gap for perhaps a week. I won’t reply messages. I won’t pick up phonecalls for me, unless it’s dead serious. I won’t communicate with anyone. For more than week, and I’ve done that. And succeeded. Perhaps I should start tomorrow.
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